I survived the party :) despite my inability to be normal, haha. Tonight I was feeling sad about this while cooking dinner, and telling God I was down. When He said to me - "You know, I didn't call you to 'be normal'" And I thought of this verse in Philippians 2:15 - "Then you will shine among them (the warped and crooked generation it talks about before) like stars in the sky" Yeah, I suppose I want to be a shining beacon of hope in suffering, rather than be totally normal.
One of the things this non-normal shining beacon did right, was write this book... A friend asked about this the other day, and I never did tell you that I heard from social welfare. And the financial amount is totally gone!! Due to the many mistakes social welfare has made. Reason enough for me to put on a party hat this time, instead of picturing it on those talking about 'my problem' :) Pfew.